Amazing Grace – Does Love Forgive?

I’ve heard people say that a relationship can’t work if there are secrets between partners.  I bet that’s not true in every case.  I get what they’re going for though. 

I never thought much about telling Addie about magic.  When the idea did cross my mind, I was fine with keeping that secret.  Totally totally honestly my thought process was I was signed on with Free-U for six months, which ending up being nine, and once the 4 Horsepeople Apocalypse angle was done they weren’t going to keep me around.  After that I would be back on the road and it would be over with Addie anyway so what was the point of complicating things?

Maybe that makes me a coward and a heartless bitch but that’s what it was. 

The decision ended up being taken away from me.  Magic is a real asshole sometimes. 

Addie had a friend of a friend of a cousin of a whatever who was breaking into to the business.  He had tried to get her a job with Free-U but she was just six months into training.  They brought her in a couple times as an extra but she never wrestled for them. 

She was booked to be on AEW Dark but one night walking home a dude attacked her and slashed her face and chest.  They brought in a plastic surgeon to work on her at the hospital but she was still marked up.  More on the chest than on the face.

She didn’t want to be on TV looking like that and was thinking about quitting the business altogether so Addie asked me to talk to her.  Her friends and family thought that she would regret passing up this opportunity because wrestling had always been her dream.  They probably didn’t even realize how rare the chance she was getting is.

At first I didn’t understand why he was asking me to talk to her.  It took me a minute to figure out “oh, because I’m all cut up too”.  Duh. 

I told him that I would talk to her if he wanted me to.  I pointed out that I’m a terrible person to talk to anyway and in this case I thought it was fine for her to lay low for a while after experiencing what she did.  I also had no issue if she wanted to work under a hood (mask) which she said she might do if she even took the booking at all.  They wanted me to talk her into doing the gig and out of wearing a mask. 

I tried to make it clear that if I talked to her I wasn’t going to push their agenda.  They still wanted me to do it. 

I met her at her apartment in Springfield and we talked for a couple hours.  I don’t know if it did anything for her.  Our experiences and our outlook on life and our approach to wrestling was completely different.  There’s no two ways about it, for most women in wrestling the way you look is more important than anything else.  It’s not even close.

If did tell her that you can’t let an experience like this like this break you down and that the opportunity she had was hard to come by while trying not to pressure her either.  I told her if she didn’t want to do it she shouldn’t do it but she should make sure that it was her decision and not a reaction to what happened.  Like I said I don’t know if it did any good. 

None of it mattered anyway. 

She asked me a lot about what I had tried to “fix” my scars.  Since I tried nothing that wasn’t much of a conversation.  Eventually she asked me what I thought of alternative healing.  I said that largely it seemed like a scam.  Then she asked me about faith healing. 

That put me in a bind.  I would have healed her if I could but the best I could do without getting other people or things involved is to advance the natural healing, she’d still have scars.  I told her that I had seen “a lot of weird shit” and I wouldn’t get my hopes up, but you could never rule it out. 

She told me that there was a woman that was a faith healer and said that she could help. 

“How much money does she want?” I asked cynically.

None was the answer.  I told her that if she was going to do that I wanted to come along.  I wonder what would have happened if she had listened to that and brought me along. 

Doesn’t matter I guess since she didn’t. 

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